HOW I’VE LOVED THEE


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FOR YOU

by Ocean R Stark

I’ve loved you for the longest time

cared for you in the most unusual of ways

desired you far more than is expected,

but loved you I have.

Seeing you relaxes my tensed nerves,

feeling your caresses ignites my senses

I need no further encouragement  from you

this is what I was meant to do, this is what we are when together.

For this is Us always.

To wake with you beside me, freshly, new day, new thoughts on how it should be

on how we are, on how we care, how we belong

in love in life.

So choose me, cherish me, show me

love me, be me

Be mine, I’ll be yours

To love, always ………

 

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BECAUSE WE NEED THIS AT THIS TIME


WHEN TRAGEDY STRIKES

The words just can’t come to me and I just know I needed to say something.

It’s a heart-wrenching thing to happen to our children and young adults. Manchester is hurting right now and the World along with you, know this. Know that prayers, love, compassion and an over-pouring of condolences are being sent your way across oceans at this terrible time.
I’ve known grief and sorrow as have many. Truth is, the human heart breaks, and shatters, but over time and a very long time, it begins the process of self-mending, of healing.
This comforts me when I think of my Family, I never did get a chance to say goodbye, and I shall always be sorry for that.
Music in this World connects us with feelings of sorrow, despair, forgiveness, hope love, all the emotions we go through in this life, music is our light in that direction. This has saddened me a great deal.

As sleep evades me I am keying these few lines to share in your pain, It may not help much now but each day a little less. It will get better, not right away but eventually, it will and even then the rawness of the situation will be as clear as a summer’s day.

But for now, my thoughts are with all the Families affected, for their loss, we pray for you all……….

MUSINGS (OR SOMETHING ELSE ENTIRELY)


IN FULL FLIGHT

 

I have begun to have second and thirds thoughts about this

           Am I doing the right thing

                  should I venture, or catapult

                           take the easy way or the hard way

 

Making it easier is not helping, the pressure is building…..

         I have to get there on my own,

            Or what would have been  the point of it all in the first place?

 

Nothing being said and done now will be totally useless;

        the ball was dropped and shit happened, on another note though,

             the clouds do have an answer, being so far away.

 

Try as I may it’s a long way off, but I have a plan or two;

           I didn’t get here by guessing and fumbling my way through this life,

                 the journey was planned, the ground-work layered from inception 

                   So am I worried? Never!  Am I going to do this? Hell yes! 

                           And no one is  stopping me …….

           

YOU HAVE TO SAY THE WORDS OR WHAT WOULD BE THE POINT?


In everyone’s lifetime I’m sure there are times when you thought to yourself “why……

I should of, but didn’t; could of, but were either too shy, or the timing was not right.

 Excuses, excuses,always there like a crutch to hold on to, stop it !!

You see a lot of imagery quotes luring you in the right direction. Picking up your spirits, putting a smile on your face. Well done to whom ever is doing it. I surely benefited from some.

However, my beef is with people not having the courage to say the words out loud,whether it’s to yourself or someone, man up and claim your prize! Look in the mirror ! You are worth every ounce of it ( literally) wpid-18-1.jpg.jpeg

I say the words every single day, and I hear those words every single day in return, that feeling is amazing! like (weightlessness) being free. In the sense that you’re not alone, that you exist for a  bigger purpose  than you can ever imagine. Like I need this (special thing) just to get through the day, and  I do. But it’s more than that , it’s a pulse-racing, can’t catch your breath WOW moment that my word! how did I reach here, and I feel blessed just knowing this bit, MOMDBB you have no idea how much I know it……

So tonight as I pen this (pun)  I say ” I am glad that you are in my life, happy that I met you, and happier still to know more……

Okay enough of this ramblings! I swear I do get carried away so often.My mind is constantly working new things to do, to experience.

SMB you are in my prayers, that what you seek in life will make you into the man you are destined to be. Strong, capable, dependable, ambitious all with a heart of gold and the humility that only you can transmit to others.

MOMDBB I Luv you

SANCTUARY


White Orchids

White Orchids

Beauty belies beneath still caves,

enveloping, caressing, slowly.

Minding, caring, still so,

deliberately provoking, stimulating, 

setting things right, the wrong;

Why does it have to be this way?

ever-engaging, ever-angry, sometimes loyal, never present,

always unsatisfied by events that play an after-thought.

Until the day starts with a wake up call be lying love, precious love.

Searching, hoping, longing, the value of the future,

in one miss call, a mere whisper of a kiss so sweet, a hint of promise.

We’ll see……. thinking yes, hoping yes…..

Now you see me, always,

here

waiting

caring

loving

serene

infinity

BE THE BALL MOMDBB

YOU SAY APPLES I SAY ORANGES….WE SAY YES♥


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“I carry your heart with me (I carry it in my heart)I am never without it (anywhere
I go you go,my dear; and whatever is done by only me is your doing,my darling)
I fear no fate (for you are my fate,my sweet)I want no world (for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it’s you are whatever a moon has always meant and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud and the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows
higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that’s keeping the stars apart

I carry your heart (I carry it in my heart)” 
― E.E. Cummings

 

WISHES (NOT ON A STAR BUT SOMETHING ELSE)


Still

 

For you , only you……

Thinking, seeing, feeling

Memories never forgotten,

Images still.

Limbs, moving and yet not…..

flowing.

Beautiful, just beautiful….

Hands, fingers, caressing

Oh but how beautiful.

Shall I wait,

Shall I wait,

Shall I wait 

No I don’t think so, I don’t need  to; I think,

I think I’ve waited enough.

Wait! you’re here! 

Silly me, all that for nothing.

Come sit with me, be with me 

Tell me about your day.

 

MOMDBB
BETHE BALL

MISSING YOU (WELL EVERY MINUTE) TO SAY THE LEAST


Yesterday was bad enough, but today come on already!
I miss you, terribly!
don’t you have any idea
how I am feeling right now

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Well maybe you do, then again maybe not;
It all seems so unreal at times
like I am looking at someone else’s life in slow motion.
Wondering, worrying,
You take too many chances, don’t!
stick around for me, for us,

Lets see where it goes
how far it goes
I think you might enjoy it …………..

A BOOK IN A DAY…..(LITERALLY)


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Got this book from sister Aly, and have been reading it  repeatedly, she said it’s the ideal book for anyone willing to learn, “If you’re unsure after reading this you won’t be” Ok I said. End of conversation……

Little ever surprises me anymore, small gestures like his hand on the small of my back, indicating the direction he wants me to go, His arm suspiciously brushing against my arm causing the tiny hairs to stand erect, his eyes betraying a hunger thinly concealed. Fingers creeping around my waist holding me ever so close yet not close enough, I shiver….. wow looking at him “you’re very wicked”  I whisper, he smiles. As we leave the store I find he does this almost every time we enter a store, a pharmacy or just browsing .

I love this man truly I do !

Be the Ball

MOMDBB