There’s nothing better I like than the sound of rain falling on rooftops. The sound is like a lullaby edging me to sleep, all thoughts, worries all on the back burner. My only conscious thought right now is listening and letting my mind drift to where my body wishes.

It’s truly the most relaxed I’ve been in a while….weeks actually. I’m loving it for now.


I think back to a time when I was much  younger, and loving the rain making the ground all muddy and sticky; can I just say; the smell when those first few drops hit the dirt, this smelled of chocolate and wet sand, mixed with the smell of the sea……to me! this was the scent in my head that I simply cannot forget. A treasured memory.

Today was like that….and I slept and slept. Dreaming of nothing, thinking of nothing except the sound of the rain an ever-present awareness, like a song thunderous and chillingly soothing all at the same time. I wish every weekend would rain.

Insane woman 🙂





“The Paradoxical Commandments

People are illogical, unreasonable, and self-centered.
Love them anyway.

If you do good, people will accuse you of selfish ulterior motives.
Do good anyway.

If you are successful, you will win false friends and true enemies.
Succeed anyway.

The good you do today will be forgotten tomorrow.
Do good anyway.

Honesty and frankness make you vulnerable.
Be honest and frank anyway.

The biggest men and women with the biggest ideas can be shot down by the smallest men and women with the smallest minds.
Think big anyway.

People favor underdogs but follow only top dogs.
Fight for a few underdogs anyway.

What you spend years building may be destroyed overnight.
Build anyway.

People really need help but may attack you if you do help them.
Help people anyway.

Give the world the best you have and you’ll get kicked in the teeth.
Give the world the best you have anyway.”
Kent M. Keith, The Silent Revolution: Dynamic Leadership in the Student Council


Dark, deep, dense, dreary 
flowing steadily,  on and on a
constant, reminder slowly forever.
On on on on 
Angry, angst,  abhor, amid
subsiding , calming who knew it could be like this
drifting away, I hope It stays away never to return.
Maybe, just maybe.
Vivid, vigorous,vital,vibrant
Finally! some progress getting ahead
moving faster , clearly in a better place , to do more
laughing loudly, pleased as punch
Interesting, ignorant, irritating, infatuated
Standing alone causes stagnantly; deflates closure
together forges a bond inseparable as only we can do.
Ingenious is what I am thinking of , how far can I ,we go


The weekend flew by so fast one minute I was sleeping or trying to and the next thing it’s morning, how crushed I am right now.

Started back on my ritual of drinking a half teacup of Saffron tea, no sugar no milk as some suggested. First thing at Mornings and last thing at Nights. How ever will I keep up?

Wish me luck !



Wondering why, thinking constantly, how, why, when will it be over?


“You can talk with someone for years, everyday, and still, it won’t mean as much as what you can have when you sit in front of someone, not saying a word, yet you feel that person with your heart, you feel like you have known the person for forever…. connections are made with the heart, not the tongue.”
―     C. Joy Bell C.


So many questions being asked with no answers in sight or is there and I don’t see it…… my Dad used to say that “Nothing good ever comes from doing bad” meaning that for someone to get ahead in life, the one constant is to always do good for someone else, help when you could.. and truly little things seems to be happening that is desired.


So another weekend and my presence is an issue once, twice, a million times again. Since when is it problematic for one …any man or woman to engage in a relationship that has spanned a twelve-year period entitled them to request space that entails them engaging in the most unthinkable acts imaginable that can only result in hurting the other person? Who does this, and is it time to call it quits, or have the moment passed and I missed it , or just simply ignored it and accepted it at such, that it is what it is, and nothing else. Have I moved on in my mind and not be aware it? Maybe I have…… then why am I still feeling this way?

Just another day in paradise, ( a smile on my face, the breeze in my hair, what is more important at this time?)





An angel and her lover.....

An angel and her lover….. (Photo credit: SLR Jester)

At some point in our lives we face that demon called “doubt”.

I had my share of him last night, could not sleep a wink, in the darkness I lay and pondered what will happen on the “day” when my life will forever be changed, and I swear my mind came up blank…….nonsense……..blank …..cheesecake…….walking in the rain…….blank ….buying a pink satchel bag that would look fab with my blue denim jeans and white poet  shirt …..grrrrrr  ENOUGH  ALREADY!!!! 

Tried to pray, blank. What the hell was wrong with me? Why can’t I sleep? My mind was tired from all the wanderings, so I decided to listen to Sia, in the hopes that the demon will let me, no such luck! Now I’m becoming pissed. To much damn thinking and not enough  love-making; Where shall I lay the blame , more freaking questions giving my brain a workout my body badly needed. HELP!!!

Then it hit me …send a  letter to my friend, my consciousness will be better for it. “I missed you, I loved you today as I do everyday, I haven’t felt you at all recently, normally you’re in my thoughts, for some reason though, you were not today as I did not feel you; then you called and I  released a pent – up sigh  I wasn’t even aware I was holding my breath….ahhhhhhh ……my mind had a lapse!! Delicious feels wonderful 🙂

Hey I’m feeling drowsy, how stupid that I did not think of it before!! Babe your my night-cap, my sleep pill, my cozy blanket, my fluffy pillow……

My heart slows, eyes closing, seeing you next to me , the words begin to blur, I curl into you , sleep at last ……….Thank you