Its been a pretty hectic three months for me, doing absolutely  nothing and everything, does that sound confusing to you? Not to me! Literally I’ve been running on empty for the past couple months and only now have I begun to settle back into my normal routine; which, has not been easy, but I’m getting there.


Normally the idea of accomplishing something, be it a goal, dream or a long desired passion (clean thoughts here! nothing nasty yet) That ultimate goal of seeing your future self, doing the  things you enjoy.

Finding your life’s passion can sometimes be a very daunting task, with obstacles and road blocks, literally put in place  for you…like challenges, you must overcome them in order to move forward. Knowing that at least today you did the best you could and tomorrow would be another day…… a new set of distractions, new cause for procrastinating thoughts to seep in and undermine all the sorted plans.


Not tomorrow, I shall do as the above and live my dreams, whatever they may be !…….but today I am content to just be.




Yesterday I was thoroughly drained, exhausted and in badly need of fluids, so dehydrated I more or less felt really bombed out. I’m beginning to wonder if maybe I picked up a bug. Having to shake this very listless feeling is tiring indeed!
So much to get done and so little time in which to do these tasks. I need a booster! Lately I’ve been having berry smoothies, with a hint of vegetables thrown in for good measure, and I’m starting to see a difference in my skin’s texture. Mostly it’s been clear ……for the minor dark marks here and there, (total age killers, I might add)


Recently, though I had a massive breakout session with the lurkers. And then reality set in to further test my resolve; what you put in your body is what you look like on the outside!

My consciousness has perfect skin, though he may think otherwise….. Tight, poreless, ever flushed, and I have never, not once seen him dripping in sweat. Then again he’s a fitness guru, and being in the zone you tend to mimic the other.
So, I’m starting over , changing the course as they say, improvement is on the way. And at the same time, living the good life!
Till you hear from me……….




“The Paradoxical Commandments

People are illogical, unreasonable, and self-centered.
Love them anyway.

If you do good, people will accuse you of selfish ulterior motives.
Do good anyway.

If you are successful, you will win false friends and true enemies.
Succeed anyway.

The good you do today will be forgotten tomorrow.
Do good anyway.

Honesty and frankness make you vulnerable.
Be honest and frank anyway.

The biggest men and women with the biggest ideas can be shot down by the smallest men and women with the smallest minds.
Think big anyway.

People favor underdogs but follow only top dogs.
Fight for a few underdogs anyway.

What you spend years building may be destroyed overnight.
Build anyway.

People really need help but may attack you if you do help them.
Help people anyway.

Give the world the best you have and you’ll get kicked in the teeth.
Give the world the best you have anyway.”
Kent M. Keith, The Silent Revolution: Dynamic Leadership in the Student Council


Have you ever wondered why we say the things we do ?

He : I love you..

She: Why do you always say it like its the answer for everything, like it’d fix things!

He: Why do you always have to be so angry?

She: You never listen ! Its too much just being in the same room with you!! I’m trying to explain something to you, and all you can think of ….is sex!

He: We never see each other anymore, don’t you know I love you

She: You were the one who decided this, we are not living on mars, if you wanted to see me you could’ve made the effort, this was so last century!! don’t you get that I’m tired of this circus we have , its no longer fun. If you loved me like you say , you would make the time, make an effort dammit!!

He: I told you about my work! I’m very busy!

She: Bullshit! you’re full of crap I think you’re making excuses and I am done!!.

What can one think of the circumstances that led to the above scene? I am curious to accumulate some feedback and your help would be greatly appreciated. So why not let me know your thoughts in the comments below;





I have begun to have second and thirds thoughts about this

           Am I doing the right thing

                  should I venture, or catapult

                           take the easy way or the hard way


Making it easier is not helping, the pressure is building…..

         I have to get there on my own,

            Or what would have been  the point of it all in the first place?


Nothing being said and done now will be totally useless;

        the ball was dropped and shit happened, on another note though,

             the clouds do have an answer, being so far away.


Try as I may it’s a long way off, but I have a plan or two;

           I didn’t get here by guessing and fumbling my way through this life,

                 the journey was planned, the ground-work layered from inception 

                   So am I worried? Never!  Am I going to do this? Hell yes! 

                           And no one is  stopping me …….



Dark, deep, dense, dreary 
flowing steadily,  on and on a
constant, reminder slowly forever.
On on on on 
Angry, angst,  abhor, amid
subsiding , calming who knew it could be like this
drifting away, I hope It stays away never to return.
Maybe, just maybe.
Vivid, vigorous,vital,vibrant
Finally! some progress getting ahead
moving faster , clearly in a better place , to do more
laughing loudly, pleased as punch
Interesting, ignorant, irritating, infatuated
Standing alone causes stagnantly; deflates closure
together forges a bond inseparable as only we can do.
Ingenious is what I am thinking of , how far can I ,we go




“Nothing being said is ever worth listening to twice” This from someone whom I assumed had a mediocrity of literacy within their ant-like brain.

To my utter astonishment the more they spoke, the more rubbish came spewing out like barf from their mouth, stench that only affected my inability to breath normally. All I was thinking was, suppose I smack them really hard (by accident of course) I would not be held accountable. Of  course, I was wrong.

To be in  the presence of intelligent people has many advantages, you learn things that awaken your present thinking, ambitiousness is heightened as well as the ability to impress.

So I accepted the outcome, ignorance is no excuse….IGNORANCE IS NO EXCUSE

Stupidity, on the other hand, well that’s something totally different!! And man! ….take up my space and I will flatten you! Not that I am a violent person, far from it! But standing by and seeing someone being verbally abused or as they say now-a-days BULLYING. I have zero tolerance for the JACK ASS who feels that this type of behavior makes them a social hit. It only makes people know your true colors  meaning any semblance of social interactivity you have are all shot to hell!!

Some rules to live by; 

  • Practice the art of intelligent socializing 
  • Learn to accept when your are wrong and moved on with dignity
  • Allow space and time between conversations, that way your voice is better heard
  • Speak clearly and confidently
  • Be willing to listen.


In everyone’s lifetime I’m sure there are times when you thought to yourself “why……

I should of, but didn’t; could of, but were either too shy, or the timing was not right.

 Excuses, excuses,always there like a crutch to hold on to, stop it !!

You see a lot of imagery quotes luring you in the right direction. Picking up your spirits, putting a smile on your face. Well done to whom ever is doing it. I surely benefited from some.

However, my beef is with people not having the courage to say the words out loud,whether it’s to yourself or someone, man up and claim your prize! Look in the mirror ! You are worth every ounce of it ( literally) wpid-18-1.jpg.jpeg

I say the words every single day, and I hear those words every single day in return, that feeling is amazing! like (weightlessness) being free. In the sense that you’re not alone, that you exist for a  bigger purpose  than you can ever imagine. Like I need this (special thing) just to get through the day, and  I do. But it’s more than that , it’s a pulse-racing, can’t catch your breath WOW moment that my word! how did I reach here, and I feel blessed just knowing this bit, MOMDBB you have no idea how much I know it……

So tonight as I pen this (pun)  I say ” I am glad that you are in my life, happy that I met you, and happier still to know more……

Okay enough of this ramblings! I swear I do get carried away so often.My mind is constantly working new things to do, to experience.

SMB you are in my prayers, that what you seek in life will make you into the man you are destined to be. Strong, capable, dependable, ambitious all with a heart of gold and the humility that only you can transmit to others.

MOMDBB I Luv you


Yesterday was bad enough, but today come on already!
I miss you, terribly!
don’t you have any idea
how I am feeling right now


Well maybe you do, then again maybe not;
It all seems so unreal at times
like I am looking at someone else’s life in slow motion.
Wondering, worrying,
You take too many chances, don’t!
stick around for me, for us,

Lets see where it goes
how far it goes
I think you might enjoy it …………..