Its been a pretty hectic three months for me, doing absolutely nothing and everything, does that sound confusing to you? Not to me! Literally I’ve been running on empty for the past couple months and only now have I begun to settle back into my normal routine; which, has not been easy, but I’m getting there.
Normally the idea of accomplishing something, be it a goal, dream or a long desired passion (clean thoughts here! nothing nasty yet) That ultimate goal of seeing your future self, doing the things you enjoy.
Finding your life’s passion can sometimes be a very daunting task, with obstacles and road blocks, literally put in place for you…like challenges, you must overcome them in order to move forward. Knowing that at least today you did the best you could and tomorrow would be another day…… a new set of distractions, new cause for procrastinating thoughts to seep in and undermine all the sorted plans.
Not tomorrow, I shall do as the above and live my dreams, whatever they may be !…….but today I am content to just be.
|IN FULL FLIGHT
I have begun to have second and thirds thoughts about this
Am I doing the right thing
should I venture, or catapult
take the easy way or the hard way
Making it easier is not helping, the pressure is building…..
I have to get there on my own,
Or what would have been the point of it all in the first place?
Nothing being said and done now will be totally useless;
the ball was dropped and shit happened, on another note though,
the clouds do have an answer, being so far away.
Try as I may it’s a long way off, but I have a plan or two;
I didn’t get here by guessing and fumbling my way through this life,
the journey was planned, the ground-work layered from inception
So am I worried? Never! Am I going to do this? Hell yes!
And no one is stopping me …….
In everyone’s lifetime I’m sure there are times when you thought to yourself “why……
I should of, but didn’t; could of, but were either too shy, or the timing was not right.
Excuses, excuses,always there like a crutch to hold on to, stop it !!
You see a lot of imagery quotes luring you in the right direction. Picking up your spirits, putting a smile on your face. Well done to whom ever is doing it. I surely benefited from some.
However, my beef is with people not having the courage to say the words out loud,whether it’s to yourself or someone, man up and claim your prize! Look in the mirror ! You are worth every ounce of it ( literally)
I say the words every single day, and I hear those words every single day in return, that feeling is amazing! like (weightlessness) being free. In the sense that you’re not alone, that you exist for a bigger purpose than you can ever imagine. Like I need this (special thing) just to get through the day, and I do. But it’s more than that , it’s a pulse-racing, can’t catch your breath WOW moment that my word! how did I reach here, and I feel blessed just knowing this bit, MOMDBB you have no idea how much I know it……
So tonight as I pen this (pun) I say ” I am glad that you are in my life, happy that I met you, and happier still to know more……
Okay enough of this ramblings! I swear I do get carried away so often.My mind is constantly working new things to do, to experience.
SMB you are in my prayers, that what you seek in life will make you into the man you are destined to be. Strong, capable, dependable, ambitious all with a heart of gold and the humility that only you can transmit to others.
Lalah Hathaway -Forever For Always For Love
“I carry your heart with me (I carry it in my heart)I am never without it (anywhere
I go you go,my dear; and whatever is done by only me is your doing,my darling)
I fear no fate (for you are my fate,my sweet)I want no world (for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it’s you are whatever a moon has always meant and whatever a sun will always sing is you
here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud and the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows
higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that’s keeping the stars apart
I carry your heart (I carry it in my heart)”
― E.E. Cummings